I miss you Ryan

Today was the superbowl and Randy and I were here by ourselves. We invited Grandma Doris over and she had lunch and watched the first half of the superbowl but she wanted to go home during halftime. Mel and Scott and family usually come and we do fondue but this year their church doesn't get finished until 6p.m.

As the superbowl was starting I really had a sense of missing Ryan. He would always call and wonder who we wanted to win and then we would have fun betting who would be the winner. Today as the Cardinals and Steelers were about to start I realized I didn't know much about the quarterbacks for the teams. Ryan would always fill us in with all of the details of each quarterback and why he hoped one or the other would win. Ryan was the one who got Randy and I to love football. Neither of us understood football until Ryan told us he wanted to play,(as his mother I certainly didn't want him to break his neck and get paralized) and to our surprise, he was an excellent football player and it was so fun to follow his team through jr. high and high school. He also helped Greg and Nathan to love and excel at the sport too. Randy and I have many fond memories of watching our boys play sports, and the girls cheer and dance.

I told Randy today while we were watching the football game that if Ryan were still alive he would probably have been moved here by now and practicing medicine in Burley. Randy said that he thought that Ryan would have maybe wanted to specialize into a certain area and would have still been doing some residency somewhere. I realized that Ryan actually already is working and specializing in doing the Lord's work. AND I know that he is enjoying his new job much more than any here on this earth.

I love each one of my sweet children sooooo much. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father allowed each one of you to come into our home. You have all taught us so much and you are all
our best friends. xoxo peace - mom

p.s. I am so excited for Nathan to start his new job tomorrow 2/2/09. :~))